Thursday, June 7, 2012


One year ago today, March 30, I took my last round of Chemo.  This morning I opened my devotion book, Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young and that's when I saw it written, "my last day of Chemo".  Last year I had highlighted the very first words on the page, "I AM TAKING CARE OF YOU, Trust Me at all times."  Today as I read those words, tears began to cascade down my cheeks as I realized how powerful those words were to me last year and how POWERFUL they still are to me today! 

I am taking care of you. Trust Me at all times. Trust Me in all circumstances. Trust Me with all your heart. When you are weary and everything seems to be going wrong, you can still utter these four words: “I trust You, Jesus.” By doing so, you release matters into My control, and you fall back into the security of My everlasting arms.

Before you arise from your bed in the morning, I have already arranged the events of your day. Every day provides many opportunities for you to learn My ways and grow closer to Me. Signs of My Presence brighten even the dullest day when you have eyes that really see. Search for Me as for hidden treasure. I will be found by you.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.
—Proverbs 3:5

The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms. He will drive out your enemy before you, saying, “Destroy him!” Deuteronomy 33:27

I had my doctor's appointment last week.  It was a VERY good visit.  I am scheduled for my next PT/CT Scan in June.  Although they cannot tell me, I am cancer free, they can tell me that I am a ONE YEAR AND THREE MONTH CANCER SURVIVOR, and I will continue to believe that I am cancer FREE!  

I will continue to trust that He will drive out the enemy, saying, “Destroy him!”



My Caffeine Gift From Jesus

After I left the parking lot having stopped by our local Christian Bookstore, Salt Cellar,  I looked up and saw the STARBUCKS sign.  All of a sudden I thought…………….I want a Caramel Macchiato   There was NO one in line.    I placed my order and started driving to the window.   That’s when the thought hit me…………I should have called the office and ask if anyone else would like something……………..but it was too late, I was already at the window to pay.  As I rolled my window down and the rich aroma that is only identifiable with a stop at STARBUCKS hit me in the face and out of nowhere the TEARS started.  The young man told me how much it was and I handed him my card.  It was pretty noticeable that I was tearing up and he said, “are you ok?”   Trying to smile instead of doing the “BLUBBER” I said yes!   As he prepared my order,  the realization of another milestone to my “normal” life had just happened.  It has been almost 2 years since I have  ordered a Caramel Macchiato   (one of my favorite, comfort drinks before cancer).  I pretty much cried all the way back to the office.  As I apologized to everyone in the office for not calling to see if they too wanted their favorite comfort drink, I began to BLUBBER again, as they laughed at me and cried with me over my STARBUCKS run and my caffeine gift  from Jesus!